Today I have the pleasure of finally attending the Making Things Happen intensive. Here is what I am feeling right now:

The opportunity to attend this intensive fell into my lap. I had every intention of attending but I simply couldn’t afford the investment, until one afternoon an opportunity arose that is solely responsible for making it possible for me to attend. That is all I can say about that, but I am grateful and feel certain that I am supposed to be going.

Besides feeling grateful, I am incredibly fearful. I am afraid of the unknown. It makes me anxious to not know what will happen during the next 8 hours but I am even more anxious about what will happen afterwards. The reviews from MTH Alum are incredible. Most attendees are inspired and moved to do remarkable things, but what if that doesn’t happen for me? What if I don’t feel changed at all? What if I don’t allow myself to be open with the others? What if I trip and fall on my face when I walk into the room?  Most of all, what if my fear hinders my experience?

There are  only two thing I am really certain of right now. One is that I will survive this experience because Stylist is along for the ride. His support alone can get me through anything. The other thing I am certain of is that I need this experience in my life and the timing couldn’t be any better. I need to feel like myself again and I need the push through my fears to be successful. I am wasting so much potential.

Wish me luck!